THIS was supposed to post with Josh Groban - "To Where you Are", and Many of the Comments have reiterated what I wanted to say - eitherway, here's my thoughts on the matter..
Yesterday I was gettting a pedicure at Walmart. Elle was with me. FM100 was playing elevator type music for all the patrons at Da Vi Nails listening pleasure. Normally you don't really notice the music at places like that. It's just there.
I usually "people watch" when I'm getting my Pedi done. People mindlessly shopping at Walmart. Old people, short people, brown people, beautiful people, dirty people, people with no shoes, people with no manners. All kinds of folks. This time I took my book. I could see Elle was reading too. It was nice and relaxing.
All of a sudden I noticed the song that was playing in the background. Josh Groban "To Where You Are" was playing. Elle and I instantly looked at each other and our eyes locked. We both got emotional and looked away from each other quickly. Otherwise we would have lost control of our emotions completley.
We've had this unspoken rule at our house that we just don't listen to Josh Groban anymore. Not allowed. Period. Ever. Not since this song was chosen to play during a very emotional slide show at Grandma Lyn's funeral just over 2 years ago.
So, while the nice asian man was painting my toenails I listened to Josh Groban and yes, I was emotional but I was surprisingly not a puddle of tears. I had a nice reflective moment about Lyn. I realized that lately, I hadn't thought about Lyn nearly as much as I used to. It's getting easier not to.
I know it's easy to allow life's little frustrations and the complexities of family and kids to overwhelm us. I have recently made a shift in how I choose to approach family stress. For my own health and well being, I choose conciously every day to let the things that would normally annoy me or stress me out to just roll off my back. I accept that I am not perfect. My kids are not perfect. My marriage is not perfect.
It occured to me while I was listening to the lyrics to the Josh Groban song in my head that Lyn didn't allow other's choices to cause her pain either. Lyn was very accepting and nurting and didn't view life or people as annoying or inconvenient or stressful. She certainly had reason to. She chose not to.
I really miss Lyn. She is really the most Christ-like person I ever knew. She's such a great example still today of how to be happy.
Maybe you're still here
2 comments:
stop it.
I really miss her too. I look at the kids, and I imagine how proud she is of them. Also, that she's up there in heaven rearranging the universe for their benefit. :)
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